The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Days 86

I woke up feeling like shit today.  I had dreams about my partner. It seemed like a rewind back to my deep feelings of anxiety and depression because I was focusing on him as my source of feeling good.

Eew!

I jolted out of bed and went to a yoga class and dropped some tears and now I feel much better after that and meditating and checking in with my guides.

What I got clearly was that I have been trying to make something happen.  This is not the way of The Law of Attraction.  The law of attraction is based on me feeling good and nothing more and nothing less.

This is what page 44 of "The Vortex" said to me this morning:

"When the moment of thought is blissful and satisfying -- without the contradictory energy of trying to make something that has not yet happened, happen -- your Vibration is pure and powerful, and your creation can easily flow without hindrance."

So, today I get to work on myself and return myself to that space of feeling good no matter what is going on around me.  I cannot look to ANYTHING outside of my SELF for anything because that will not work.  It is all about feeling good and being connected and present to my Higher Self, the REAL SELF.  I will do things that feel good today and nurture me.

Today I am going to do spiritual quest things.  I need some answers to some deep questions and I need nature to help me do that.  I always feel so calm and centered when I am in nature and beholding the beauty and wonder there.

Namaste

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Days 85

What a beautiful day driving back to Palm Springs from visiting my family.  It was a great visit and I got all kinds of encouragement, love and support on my recent challenges.

The neatest thing is the synchronicity of events and things that have happened during this trip.  I have been pampered and spoiled and have barely spent a dime.  Wow!  I am effortlessly meeting new folks and stretching myself further than I have in many years.  I have a positive expectation and outlook despite any contrast I am experiencing in my life.

I can't wait to see what the rest of the week uncovers!

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Days 84

It is so hard to believe that it has almost been 90 days since I began this journey.  Wow!  I can honestly say this has been a life-transforming experience.  I am in a much different place than when I began this journey.

When this journey commenced I was a VICTIM, now I am a CREATOR.

I love every moment of life and I trust that EVERYTHING I want to create is brought to me.  I only have to keep focused on what I want, my Vortex (non-physical self) and release all sense of stress and strain.  I am finding it really is that simple!

What a breath of relief!

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Days 83

Here I am in Palm Springs.  The land of eternal Summer.  Wow, is it fabulous.  The weather is everything that I remember and more.  It is quiet, peaceful, serene and I am surrounded by mountains, blue skies and beautiful singing birds.

I am finally recovered from my long-delayed flight from Friday night and now I find I have all these feelings coming up that need to be felt and listened to.  They have messages for me.  They are speaking to me.  I know from the teachings of Abraham that my feelings are my guidance barometer.  So tune in I will.

Check back for more news and progress as this week moves forward...

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Days 82

It was a glorious day of Yoga, packing for my trip to Palm Springs and then travel.

Travel was a tad frustrating because of major mechanical delays, but I got to spend it with wonderful people as we passed the time.  There was also a slew of children playing games that entertained us a lot as we waited in the empty airport after midnight.  What an interesting new experience.

I am glad I had my arsenal of Mala beads, books and inspirational materials to remind me to stay in my Vortex.  This kept me calm and centered and happy.  What a change from a few years ago.  I would have been angry and livid at the circumstances AND I would have forced the airline to accommodate and compensate me somehow.

I got that anyway.  I got a voucher for some food, I will get some travel vouchers from the airline for future travel AND they will reimburse me for my cab ride to the home I am staying.

My partner pointed out that maybe it was an exercise in patience because there were no other flights for several days.  I either had to wait for the plane to arrive, or forego the trip altogether.  That was, obviously, unacceptable.

So, now I am in Palm Springs visiting old friends, family and getting a much needed break from my routines and "life" in San Francisco.  I really need the break and I have a lot of questions to ask of the desert and of my SELF.

All is delightfully well!  Gratefully I accept this and embrace it.  And so it is...

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Days 81

What a delicious day it was.  I feel great!

I got some great reminders in my mediumship training class too.  I love my mediumship class!  I have found some great value in speaking and playing with energy and the spirit world.  I have found allies that don't judge or condemn anything I do.  They support me and guide me unerringly in every moment if I am open to it.

This physical journey is all about taking care of my SELF and expression my SELF fully and unabashedly.  This is my journey, this is my recent round of lessons.  This is where I belong.  Taking care of the SELF and allowing everything else to fall into place.

All is well and so it is...

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Days 80

In the book, "The Vortex" I read this morning that there is NO WAY to jump from feeling like crap to the top of the emotional guidance scale.  I have to do this incrementally.  It is the ONLY way.  I can see how this has been my journey for the past couple weeks, but more importantly, the past 3 years or so.

Why do I bring this up?  To remind my SELF that this is not a quick fix journey.  For me, this is essentially rewiring and rethinking EVERYTHING about this experience called human life.

I don't know about you but I was taught to believe it if I see it.  I am now profoundly experiencing that it is actually the believing that is causing the seeing or experience.  It all starts with focus, mind, belief, intent and word.

I feel like I have been “waking up” to who and what I really am for the first time ever.  This is even deeper and more profound than this felt 17 years ago when I moved to San Francisco here from San Diego.  It feels like I am coming into my awareness and practice of my SELF as an energetic, non-physical being.  This is awesome because I feel like I am leaving a lot of ego behind.

This is about Source and not about me.  This is about Source expressing in and through this body and form called Stefen.  I can let go of my personality and remember that I am not this body.  I am so much more.  I am Source powerfully choosing to be here for the purpose of expansion and expression.  Stefen gets to enjoy the ride along the way...

How fun, huh?