Life inside "The Vortex"

Life for me has been an amazing journey over the last couple of months. The but isn't this the truth for each day to day experience. I guess it all depends on how you look at life and how you look at this experience called life.

Recently I performed a Shamanic ritual for the season of Yule where I go through a process of death and rebirth. The purpose of this ritual is to end the previous year consciously and completely, including all attachments, desires, regrets, and anything unspoken. It can be a very deep and moving process. I've lost track of how many times I have done this process, however, this past year it was very poignant for me.

This past year I went from being in a place of complete and total contrast as to what I wanted to experience in life and what I was experiencing. Upon picking up the book, "The Vortex", I realized that I was looking at the creations and desires that I wanted from the wrong direction...

I was looking from the outside in instead of from the inside out!

I began the journey last winter that I called and blogged about, "The 90-Day Vortex Experience." This process was a powerful process for me because I actually began a diet. A diet of the mind. I stopped focusing upon things in the outside world and placed the emphasis on the inside world and how I felt as the single most important thing I could do moment to moment.

Where this led me was to peace. I learned that coming from a place of peace IS my Vortex. So, I began courting peace every single day. I still do this every day, moment by moment. I use this place of peace as my barometer as to whether or not a particular path or decision is the direction I need to take.

Do I still have doubts and misgivings about what I've done and where I'm going? Absolutely! I am human after all...

Back to the Shamanic process I spoke about earlier. As I performed the process this year I was deeply moved by the things that I was still holding onto. I had to release all of my desires and dreams and wishes. I had to release all of my accomplishments and wins. I had to release absolutely everything that I deemed good in my life in this moment in order to embrace an even greater future. This is what real death can be like. I think this is why we sometimes have such a hard time letting go. I completed the process and now I am on the other side.

Do I still have similar or the same goals dreams and desires? Absolutely!

The difference is I am no longer ATTACHED to achieving them.

I have reconnected with the peace inside. The peace that passes all understanding. Yes, that statement can be a reality for all of us. It isn't so hard to achieve. It just takes letting go and trusting that there is something more to this experience than what appears in front of us and in our human experience of life.

And so it is...