The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 27

Yesterday was an amazing day.  It was my partner's Birthday so the entire day centered around him and celebrating his birth.  It was a delicious day!  It really, REALLY was...

The best thing I want to communicate is that by focusing on my Vortex or balancing my energy I am receiving not only physical results, but intuitive and intellectual results as well.  Let me explain...

The book, "The Vortex" tells me to connect and seek alignment with my Vortex before I do anything or say anything.  I have taken this to heart and have surrendered all of the unwanted to my Vortex.  I still notice from time to time, but I thank the contrast and remember it is what creates better situations in life.  Yes, contrast is good!

In surrendering all of this first, I am having ideas and thoughts come to me as a way to communicate with these individuals in my life.  I am getting clearer about what I want, need and desire and then I must communicate and share with others or set limits and make corrections at times.

Yesterday a phrase came to me during meditation and prayer time.  This phrase was used to communicate and share with another individual something of great importance to me.  The phrase that came to me was non-judgemental, loving and authentic to me.  When I shared it this person was so moved by what I said that they cried.  Wow!

I guess thoughts and mental inspiration are some of what I am attracting.  I like that because sometimes I get stuck and hold back what I have to say...

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 26

I feel good again.  I feel really good!  Today is my partner’s Birthday and I am excited about that.  Yee ha!  What a fun day we will have!!!!!

I am becoming clearer lately about what I want, need and desire.  Not necessarily in that order, but clarity is a good thing.  Without clarity, the Universe or my Vortex cannot bring me anything.  Without clarity for me to focus upon how can I get excited about what I am creating?  Without clarity how can I share with others what I want?  Without clarity how can I refine what I am receiving to sift out the unwanted?

These are all rhetorical questions needless to say, but what I am excited about is the level of clarity and not just that, but the conversations I need to have as well.  I am receiving very sweet and loving ways to deal with these conversations.  The ideas are bubbling up inside me and this is bringing me peace. 

I know this is the Law of Attraction in action!

And at the same time I am turning this clarity and these ideas over to my Vortex. I know and am becoming clearer about who I am, what I like, what I want and what I need.  I hope and trust it will all work out.

I am so grateful for my clarity and passion for life and living.  All is well and so it is...

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 25

Wow!  25 days into this experience.  It really doesn't feel like I've been focusing on this that long, but I guess I have.  Isn't it interesting how time can either drag or fly by?...

The more I take care of my SELF and manage my own connection with my non-physical self or my Vortex, the calmer I am and the easier things seem to be unfolding.  This is the whole point of this experiment!

Before I began this experiment I was so frustrated by this human drama and all that goes with it.  I was tired of trying so darn hard and feeling like I was getting no where.  I was frustrated with looking at what was NOT working and worrying about what I want to create.  I was so exhausted that words cannot do this state of consciousness justice.  I was at my wits end.  End of story!

This experiment is my second lease on life.  I am trying all over again to create an amazing life and an amazing experience.  I am taking to heart that my human efforts will get me no where and this has certainly been my experience up to this point in my life.

I look back on my life and the most free that I have ever been is when I am in a space of complete surrender and trust in the Universe.  I don't have a lot of experience with this because I was not brought up to believe I was a spiritual/energetic entity experiencing this human form.  I was brought up believing something else that was not very empowering...  Sound familiar?

My goal and charge now is to unlearn all of my human misconceptions and myths as quickly as possible and to practice who and what I really am...energy in motion.

I surrender to the Divine Energies that operate the Universe in perfect balance, harmony, order and rhythm.

And so it is...

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 24

Yesterday and this past week have been a tad crammed for me.  It has been extremely busy thanks to beginning classes at City College.

Last night after meeting with my Shaman Circle, three members mentioned how tired I looked.  They must have seen the past few days in my face and energy.  Aha!  I think there is a lesson here...

If I look at this from the perspective of the Law of Attraction and The Vortex I can easily say those comments from my friends are the result of my Vortex pulling to me supportive conversations around my well-being.  It is important to me to be well rested and as mentally clear as possible at all times.  These comments are simply a reflection of that passion and dedication that I hold for my health and well-being.

Or I could go the other way about these comments and say, "how rude!"  "How dare they say such a thing!"  Well, that is NOT a very supportive conversation so I didn't look that way.  I easily chose the empowering interpretation.

This is a result of this "Vortex Experience" process.  I immediately went to an empowering interpretation, instead of a negative one.  Two or three months ago I would have rebutted and defended myself and all of that goo in my gerbil wheel.  This is AWESOME NEWS!


On the other side of this conversation I was pondering this morning about my other commitments and wondering how all of this is going to fit with the addition of 5 classes this semester...

It came to me to be patient with myself and to stop trying to figure it out.  I will return to my "Vortex" when I start worrying about ANYTHING, especially my new schedule...

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 23

I feel good lately!  This is what it vital and really important.  I have to feel good about life in general, my goals and the direction I am headingI am finding myself surrendering my anxiety about school, Rodney work, ALC and my interests and needs.  I have to continually surrender and let go and surrender and let go some more.  It isn’t such a bad thing.  It is actually a great thing because it keeps me sane and safe within my SELF.

My next step is to take this to the next step.  It is time to up-level the vibration and rise to a higher place within my Vortex.  This is my challenge, this is my goal, this is my LIFE...

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 22

I feel great today.  I have a few things that have to get done today, but it is still a beautiful, wet and clear day.  I like the rain when I don’t have to get wet in it.

I am having a very easy time these past few days of managing my energy and my focus.  I find this interesting and I think my ‘venting’ and openly sharing last Monday had A LOT to do with this.  I think the more current I am the less things will bug me and the less I will get triggered.

This means that I have to strive to stay current with EVERYTHING.  I have to share, respectfully, what is going on in my head and heart in the moment that it occurs.  I have to be willing to share what is going on inside.  This way nothing bottles up, but more importantly, I don’t get put on that darn gerbil wheel.  I am happy and content to simply be and express who and what I really am.

A child of God choosing this incarnation called Stefen.  I am grateful for this and so much more.  And so it is…

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 21

Today's entry is going to be rather short.  Why do you ask?  Because I'm not feeling it today...

I got up rather early because I had to be somewhere by noon.  Not a bad thing in and of itself, but it changed my morning routine completely.  I had a very short meditation and prayer time, flung it in the shower and then took off...

AIDS Lifecycle 9 Kickoff today.  It was fabulous seeing faces I haven't seen for a year and meeting some new friends.  I love participating in the ALC!  It is my instant community of positive and loving folks focused upon making a difference in the challenge we call AIDS and HIV.

Check out my personal page on the right side of this window...

Yes, I am doing a plug here!  Shameless of me, but someone's got to do it...  I need donations to reach my 3k minimum to ride this year.  Guess how I am going to do that?  By utilizing the Law of Attraction...

Big shock, huh?

Today is about relaxing and not much else.  I remember well what Esther and Jerry tell me, "nothing is more important than that I feel good."  Other than that, I can take life as it comes...moment by moment...

That is what I have been doing since Friday and quite honestly, I feel great!  I am not worried about a thing.  I will let my "Vortex" or Vibrational Escrow do the worrying for me...

Have a great day ya'll!  XOXOXO