The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Days 62, 63 & 64

I have been so busy these past few days that I have been unable to catch up with my SELF and write.  I enjoy writing when I am authentically expressing myself.  I find it relaxing and educational.  As I write I learn about myself.  It also causes me to review the past few moments to see what I've learned from the contrast I am experiencing...

It is an interesting dance we are all involved in here.  On one hand we are taught the Law of Attraction and that Mind/Spirit are more real than what we see, hear, touch, taste and smell.  On the other hand we experience strong contrast to allow us to learn, grow and expand as a means to focus or "lean" more fully on that part of us which is non-physical.  It can be VERY distracting and shift focus from the non-physical to the physical.  Even still, we are eventually brought to our knees about this existence and that the non-physical is more real than the physical.  I know I have felt that way lately.

I feel like EVERYTHING I have tried to muster to create has failed me miserably.  I know now it is because I have been focusing on what I don't want or the appearances of contrast that are in front of me.  It is a challenge to shift focus to something that is intangible, but that is what this whole experience of the 90-Vortex Experience is about for me.  Focusing exclusively on the non-physical side of my SELF or my Vortex and stay there.  Allow the creations I have started to come to me.  I have seen a lot of growth and a lot of expansion.

This has created more faith in my self and reminds me of a time when I played in this dance so effortlessly.

What it all comes down to is that I have to tend to me, my vibration and stop worrying about the rest.

I have spent so much time worrying, worrying, worrying and looking for the outcome.  THIS IS NOT THE WAY OF PEACE AND JOY!

I have to remind myself of this moment by moment.  I have to shed the "stuff" that no longer works and trust the feelings I am feeling inside as I stay in touch with my SELF.  These feelings are like my own personal GPS system telling me which way to turn and which way not to turn.

The slightest feeling of resistance of or discord is a resounding, "no"; whereas, a feeling of relief or expansion is a, "YES".

I am trusting this more and more and I am finding peace in this.  This is my one true goal, The Peace of Source!

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 61

I am at a loss of what to write for a change.  Can you believe that?  I can't!

I feel like I have crossed a major hurdle in my life experience and have dealt with some major issues and "stuff" inside myself that were blocking my progress with this Vortex Experience.

The long story short; IT WAS ALL ME AND IN MY MIND!

I had conflicting thoughts and beliefs that were contrary to my Vortex and Vibrational Escrow.  I see this as if I were clearly looking at a beautiful sunset on the beach.

Now I feel at peace, AND I still have to practice what I have been practicing.  STAYING IN MY VORTEX and focusing upon what I want to create or upon things I am grateful for.  Moment by moment, hour by hour, day by day, etc...  It is a never ending process of conscious focus and conscious creation.

Can you dig it? I can...

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 60

Wow!  I am now 60 days into my 90-Day Vortex Experience.  I can honestly say that life is much better AND it doesn't look anything like I thought it would.  How interesting is that?

An experience came up in my life that could have been seen as negative or challenging.  It ended up being an opportunity for discussion and a deepening in a relationship with someone in my life.  It opened up a discussion about possibility and out of this possibility came some amazing honesty, intimacy and creative solutions and possibilities.  All of them are exciting and expansive.

My point here is I never know why an experience may be coming into my life as I focus on my energy and my Vortex.  I can either have a "knee-jerk" reaction and judge and resist it saying, "this should NOT be", or I can step back and witness what is unfolding.  In witnessing and being honest with my Self and others, and staying in alignment what could have been considered a challenge or negative ended up as an opportunity for expansion.

Is there a challenge to be dealt with still?  Yes, but the energy with which I see it is radically different.  THIS IS THE WHOLE POINT!

Wow!

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 59

I am amazed at how easy this Law of Attraction really is.  I really is easy!  Hear me out...

It is just complex applying it and being CONSISTENT, especially when “stuff” comes up.  I certainly have a LOT of “stuff”.  What I am clear about is that improvement or emotional relief is my measurement.  How does it feel when I consider a course of action or allow myself to purge and cleanse myself?  Relief is my litmus test.  Does it bring emotional and energetic relief?

I have been going through some challenging times lately.  The neatest thing is that I have allowed myself to cry or be angry about something.  Why?  Because it brings emotional/energetic relief.  Hear me out...

If I am holding onto my anger it becomes resentment.  Further down the emotional ladder.

If I am holding onto sadness it can become angst or stress or anger.  Further down the emotional ladder.

So, in allowing myself to cry and purge/cleanse what I am feeling, I am bringing IMMEDIATE RELIEF to my Self.  I feel RELIEF after crying or expressing my suppressed anger in a safe manner.  The angst goes away and I am once again sitting in my Vortex.

With the release of those feelings I am opening up to things that far surpass my human intellect.  Magic and miracles seem to happen right in front of me.  REALLY!

God I love this experience and journey!  It has been so rewarding and exhilarating.  My passion and excitement for life is returning once again.  Yay!

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 58

It was a good day and I am clear this whole thing about "The Vortex" experience is all about managing my vibration and my alignment with my non-physical self and nothing else.

I keep falling down from time to time, but I keep getting up again.  I guess I am learning how to walk...

I have focused for so long on things outside my SELF and this has gotten me into so many challenges and situations in the past.  No more!  Eew!

I cannot wait for others anymore.
I cannot wait for others to change to make me happy or content.
I cannot wait for others to make things good for me.
I cannot look for ANYTHING outside of my SELF.
End of discussion!

I trust this and only this because I've got nothing to prove it wrong yet.  My best efforts of depending on others has gotten me where I am.  Now I am focusing my The Self and seeing where that is leading.

Progress, not perfection.  Continual expansion and growth is the name of my game.  Let's see how it plays out.

Blessed be!

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 57

I want to ride my bicycle, I want to ride my bike, I want to ride my bicycle, I want to ride it where I like...

What a wonderful and AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL day riding my bicycle for the first time in about three weeks.  67 miles...wow!

I was pretty congested over the last few weeks thanks to a homeopathic remedy my naturopathic doctor has me on.  He "forgot" to tell me about some of the other side effects that could happen.  Well, they all did, but the good news is there is improvement in the area being treated as well.  Yay!  This is huge progress because I have been dealing with this condition for going on two years or so.

I could say this is a manifestation of healing that I have been "blocking" by focusing on the symptoms and treating the symptoms instead of seeking alignment and then treating the cause....

ME!

It's all about the "mind" and where I choose to keep my focus.  This isn't selfish, it is taking care of the God Spark that I am.  In loving and caring for my SELF I am caring for my spirit.

The 90-Day Vortex Experience - Day 56

What a wonderful day it was.  Resting, relaxing, playing with friends and KNOWING that things are flowing easily and effortlessly.

It seems the more I practice these principles, the better things seem to be coming together.

I REALLY MEAN THAT!!!!!

Remember I've been sharing about a few relationships where they are NOT where I want them to be?  Well these relationships are improving just by the fact that I am expressing gratitude daily for these people. Real gratitude, not made up stuff!

I am also focusing on what makes me happy and content as opposed to worrying about what the world can give me to achieve this space.

I can honestly say that at Day 56 things are improving and a momentum seems to be arriving that is unparalleled.  It is uncanny, wonderful and exactly what I needed.

Now the rest is about continuing these practices daily no matter what, not just when things are crappy!