The 90-Day Vortex Diet - Day 11

I was amazed at the lovely feeling place I finally got back to yesterday.  I feel good and I feel good that I am working on me again.  I cannot look out at the world and expect ANYTHING!  I am the source and supply of all my needs and desires through my consciousness and my gratitude.

I am ready to work again.  I am ready to do work that means something in the world and is fulfilling and fun for me.  I trust that as I live my life and follow what is in front of me I will be led and guided perfectly.

I am grateful for this and so much more.  And so it is…

The 90-Day Vortex Diet - Day 10

Yesterday was a great day, very productive, but it didn’t end that way...  Why?  Because of thinking!  Yes, I said thinking!

I had an experience in the evening that left me feeling and thinking I was alone.  I felt pushed away and ignored.  Eew!

What did I get out of it?  I need to stop looking for anything outside myself.  I need to stop worrying about and looking at what I am NOT getting out of life.  I need to stop THINKING!  It is my thinking that goes haywire on me and gets me tangled in knots and feelings I don't care for.  It is all my mind, it is all my mind, it is all my mind.

I snapped at some point and just started feeling good again.  I cannot worry about what I am not getting or words or excuses or explanations.  All I can focus on is me, my mind and my alignment with Source.  The rest is driving me crazy.  Really crazy!

I got the punch in the stomach I needed by reading a passage from the book, "The Vortex".  on page 214:

"We want you to reach the place where you are willing...not just willing, determined...not just determined, eager...to let go of the need of control of things that are uncontrollable--like what anybody else is doing--and give your undivided attention to the only thing you can control, which is how you feel in any given circumstance."

I find it interesting how synchronicity brings me exactly what I need.  All the time!  Now, if I'd just get my MIND out of the way, I could allow this to happen more frequently and with some velocity...

The 90-Day Vortex Diet - Day 9

Yesterday was an exceedingly low-key, calm, peaceful, productive and soothing day.  Good!  I needed a Monday like that!

I said a few things to my partner that had come to mind the day before thanks to this work.  It was a delicious, loving and simple communication that was well received and completely understood.  How wonderful to be understood.  I think it had to do with me taking care of me and trusting the guidance that is being brought forward through me.

I can't think of much to share today because I am in the VERY beginning stages of this journey.  For me it feels like I am new to the team and am learning all the moves and ways to play the game.  Interesting analogy!  I HATED sports in school...

But that is how I feel.  Practice, practice and more practice.  Getting stronger in my skills to shift my mind, my focus and my energy.  I will find myself being a victim in the smallest of ways and will return to my practice.

I am taking life as it comes and trust I will know what to do every step of the way OR I will be shown the way.  It is what this 90-Day journey is all about afterall...

For those of you making comments, I urge you to bring them on.  I LOVE hearing from other folks.  We can all learn so much from the sharing.

Take care ya'll!  That's all for today...

The 90-Day Vortex Diet - Day 8

Yesterday was another extremely low key day.  Good!

I am still getting over a cold or something, so I am taking it quite easy and resting a lot.  I guess it was time to rest for a few days.  I guess that is what being mildly sick did for me.  Rest and relaxation.

I did a few errands that needed to get done AND I also watched or witnessed my mind go crazy trying to read minds and figure out the intentions of others.  Hmmmm...

In my "work" yesterday with my practice of connecting with my Vortex or Non-Physical self, I was able to see some simple things I could do to improve my relationship with my partner as well as others.  This is the Law of Attraction at work bringing me thoughts and ideas for improvement.  Wow, I always thought it would come as circumstances, opportunities, kismet and such.  Kewl, huh?

Today I made the communication that came to my mind yesterday as it would not leave my consciousness until I did so.  I am already clear about that.  Those nagging thoughts that are NOT negative and DON'T go away are my Vortex pushing me towards improvement.  The thoughts or actions need to be expressed or communicated or processed.

Wow!  Can it really be that simple?

So, let me see if I get this right...

1. I focus on my Vortex or Non-Physical self through connection and FEELING THE CONNECTION.  
2. Be appreciative and grateful for what is and what I am focusing on creating.  
3. Then, feelings, thoughts, actions, "coincidences" and opportunities cross my path as the direct result of my focus on improvement.
4. I act upon said opportunities and communications, etc.
5. I then reap the even better feelings of having had honored my Vortex and what it is bringing me.
6. Be appreciative for the improvement and relish the feelings!
7. And then I begin the process again...

That's all for now...

The 90 Day Vortex Diet - Day 7

I can't help but notice how easy it is for me to stay centered or in my Vortex the better I am feeling.  I am shaking a cold and I am present to how my health can easily affect my mood or "feeling" of connection with my Vortex.

I spent the better part of yesterday resting and watching movies and resting after I realized that I was being a big baby victim again.  I took a short nap, counted my Mala beads, read a little bit and then zoned out by watching movies with my honey...

I am so blessed to have such an understanding partner who doesn't take my "shit" personally.  It is rare that we have a disagreement.

I am reminded of my Science of Mind magazine passage from yesterday that began with the acronym and statement:

S.T.E.P. - Stop taking everything personally!

So it is back to the practice of looking inside for my peace, wholeness, sustenance, joy, love and most importantly, self-acceptance.  The rest will flow from that place.  Of this I am clear since I have proven this before.

Happy Sunday!  XOXOXO
Stefen

The 90-Day Vortex Diet - Day 6

Yesterday was an extremely challenging day!  Yes, I finally had a less than perfect day...

I am a tad under the weather with a cold and yesterday was the worst of it.  I had a headache, sore throat, itchy eyes and sinuses AND an extremely short fuse.

After taking care of some work that I had to get out of the way, I was left to my own self and my own mind.  Not a good thing when I am sick!  I witnessed myself go into a negative state rather quickly at the drop of a pin.  Yes, I did, and numerous times at that.  I witnessed how needy I can be when I feel sick or down and how quickly I expect others or ANYTHING outside of myself to push me back into pure positive energy.  HA!!!

My partner went out for a few hours and got stuck in a situation with no way to communicate with me that he would be a lot longer than anticipated.  Boy did my mind run with that!  Boy oh boy did I run with that.  The sad thing is that I hurt myself more than anything else.  Funny how that works, huh?

I did the best I could to bring myself back to my Center or Vortex on numerous occasions.  I tried to watch TV, but everything on was stupid, depressing or uninteresting.  I tried to read, but my concentration sucked from the headache.  I did my Mala beads several times, but found my mind wandering and clinging to what I was obsessing and lamenting about.  IT SUCKED!!

The only thing that provided some relief was sharing a bit of what my mind was going through with my partner.  I am cautious about sharing some of the content of my mind when I have gone to these depths.  I know most of what I am thinking, feeling or obsessing about is a projection of my own drama and has nothing to do what anyone but me.

In non-judgmentally communicating what was there for me I was finally able to free up some of the stuck energy and get back to a place of appreciation, love, and more importantly, My Vortex.  Wow, what an interesting learning experience...

The 90-Day Vortex Diet - Day 5

It became bleedingly clear to me last night at my Mediumship Development Class that some people misunderstand what I mean by a "90-Day Vortex Diet". Oops! Let me clarify...

I can understand why some folks are reacting with surprise to my project's title! I don't need a nutritional diet! I am in excellent shape.

What I mean by a Diet is a mental, spiritual and energetic diet of the MIND or EGO.

I am "dieting" from the repetitive, conditioned reflexes, reactions and ways of being I have learned during this lifetime.

What I glean from the book, "The Vortex", is these conditioned and reactive responses to life are not necessarily life-affirming. Some of them are just downright destructive, judgmental and non life-affirming.

My "diet" is an exercise, an experiment and test of the concepts surrounding the Law of Attraction and repeated throughout Esther & Jerry Hicks' numerous books and CD's. I am practicing the tools and processes in this book to see what happens. Nothing more and nothing less.

I am practicing FEELING GOOD NO MATTER WHAT and keeping my eye on the prize. I am turning my cheek from my conditioned ways of being and practicing a "new" way of being.

Check back in as I continue to share my experiences...